practice baby
or repeat
sometimes i would like to pull a thread through all that i have ever felt, thought and written, wished for or been stuck on and have them all dangle in front of me, on a Wäschleine (clothesline) with little colourful clips, all out to dry in the returning sun. ‘cause sometimes i get tired of searching through papers and digital/body memory. today would be a good day to look at that line and take all those clips off, that i don’t want and need anymore. happy full moon!
can you smell change like you smell spring?
do you remember the new moon in march 2022? i am trying to feel where this memory is coming from giving me an instruction manual that i might finally take to heart push that wooden flank into the soil weave my basket-in-the making around it tie a knot, sing a song, make it a spell: "loosen loosen baby..." ~ Play Place Pleasure Practice Patience Repeat . Play Place Pleasure Practice Patience Repeat . Play Place Pleasure Practice Patience Repeat ~ they don't speak to me like that, the dead, you know? and i have tried really hard to listen pushed my ears to the ground, asked questions, begged in the end i don't think that's how it works. but that snag there is gone, right? - deadwood, that's also how we call it moss and lychen, mushrooms all over it. i slip my fingers over the black goo. its alive, leaving the palm of my hand like a slippery pool black, silvery goo. to listen to the dead is to listen to the living and from the north a whisper: we'll tell you when to speak and when to be silent, undertones through the undergrowth sharpely tuned. i'm here for it now. i also hear the laughter, maybe a joker, maybe encouragement, maybe amusement of the utter human mess, composting itself on REPEAT cycles, loops, patterns (yet another p to juggle). you've got your own hoops to jump through, so i tell myself a watery story and invent the narrative again: the new moon in march in 2022 was in pisces and we just joined the pool of fish again. it's been four years so to close, name 3 things: one you take from here one you leave behind one that you gift bis später *
“Loosen loosen Baby” is a song by Aly Halpert, that i have recently been listening to on repeat.
